THING, Y U MAKE ME SO MAD?!

I read Kaila’s blog about the things she hates, so now I want to talk about something I hate in the world :

Math: I just hate you. I used to like you in like 1st to 6th grade but then you got all complicated. Add all your stupid letters and making me find them. No one even needs to know about finding a stupid angle or all that other crap, it gives me a headache.

Facebook Changes: They are so stupid. All noise on the IM thingy is so annoying. I have to mute my computer very time I talk to someone. Also, the font on Facebook is so small, I can not see anything. Did they not consider the face that people have bad eye sight? Plus, I do not care if someone has a new display picture. Facebook you always took away my privacy when you tell people what I say. Facebook is making some bad changes. They need to stop.

Waking up: UGH.I hate waking up in the morning. I smell bad, never feel good, and I am not in the mood for anything. Waking up early is not the business, it takes so much energy and encouragement to get myself up in the morning. I just never want to wake up, it takes so much work.

AC Transit: I hate taking the bus. The bus drivers are never nice, they all mean and rude. The people on the bus, well some of them are okay but the really loud and obnoxious people are so annoying. Plus all the trash and tagging in the bus just makes the bus look bad. Also, the bus is never on time, and I have to stand in the cold for like 30 minutes and creepy people are around.

Rain: The rain kills everything. Nothing goes well when it is raining, that is why in movies when something bad happens it starts to rain, cause rain is not good. I had to stand in the rain for 2 hours waiting for my dad, I was so mad. I did not mind to wait but in the rain. I could have walked home if it was not raining and my dad could have picked me up if it was not raining cause there wouldn’t be any traffic.

Okay, these are some of the things I hate, I have more but they are not right to say on here cause I will get in trouble and it might get me mad and I start to cuss. So, yeah.

UNWIND, Y U GOTTA END?

Unwind by Neal Shustermen gives a hint to rebellion and what is happening to the power of the child now. The author is trying to say that kids are the future so they need to find the will to fight for their right and that is what Conner, Risa and Lev is. The character symbolizes rebellion and the will to fight. They did everything they could throughout the book so they are able to survive and do what is best for them. In the end, Conner is running the Graveyard, where all the run away unwinds go and build up to start a rebellion to fight for their rights back.

All the character in the book have grown from where they were in the beginning. Conner is now able to control is temper. He is always being able to use his power to become a leader and the voice for all the unwinds, also he found someone to love. Risa had no one in the world and now she has everyone on her side, she always found what she is good at and what she is meant to be. In addition, she found her love and almost have everything she needs, mentally she has not changed a lot because she was always smart but now she learned how to trust others. Finally Lev have evolve the most. He is not as naive as he was in the beginning he knows what is going on in the world and what unwinding does to children. Instead of being scared, he faced all his trouble and became a hero and a leader all around the country for all unwinds.

In the book, Happy Jack Camp is where unwinds go to get unwound, it is not something everyone expect it to be. The place is full of bright colors and all the staff are happy. When Conner enters the place, for his punishment the staff told him nothing. Conner did not care as much but when Conner came, he was known as a legend. The staff did not like that because it is kinda of a threat and what Conner did might influence the others. At all times the kids are being watched and they are unable to argue or say anything or they will get unwind. That is somewhere no where wants to go.

Conner is like the leader of the rebellion. Risa is the brains, she thinks logically and keeps everyone calm. Lev is like someone he is the leader on the background who is learning and trying to fit in. They are all leaders.

This book is AMAZING.

Future, Y U NO PLAN URSELF?

In Shiyun’s blog, it got me thinking about my future..

What does future mean? What is the future that awaits us all? I have been thinking about my future recently and thought that there is no answer to what that will await me. There is no way I would know what my future will be like, for I have to decide that myself. For every decision that I make in life, there will be a result to things. No one can really change what they have done or go back to the past and start over again. We will also have to look at the road ahead and make better decisions.

So, after I read the blog post, I started to think about what will happen to me in 5 or 10 years. I started to question everything, what is my life going to be? Where will I be? Who will be in my life? All of these question started to give me a headache. Then I realized that I still have time to plan of this out. My future is tomorrow. It does not have to be 5 years from now, I do not want to think that far, I might have plans in my life but those are just goals, I do not want to plan out my life.

I know I got to ASTI, so we are kinda expected to know what we will do in our future. Well, I do really want to know my future. If I know my future and I plan everything out, what is the point of living my life when I am already living it in my head. There is no excitement in life if I already know what my future is going to be. Plus, they say everything I do reflects my future but how will we know for sure because two people can end up growing up the same way and doing the same thing but have different future.

My future right now is unclear but I like it that way. I do not have any expectations and limits I will have in my life. I am going to live my life in my own pace not knowing what my future is going to be because it is just more funny that way.

I do not know if I am making sense in this blog but to me I am so, it is all good.

Unwind. Part TWO.

In the second part of Unwind by Neal Shusterman, shows a place where run away unwinds go to called the Graveyard. The place is ruled by a man called the Admiral. The unwinds are there to work until they are eighteen.

The Graveyard is kinda like the North during 1860 and the other part of the United States is like the South. Even though unwinding is not like slavery, it has some similarities because the kids are losing the control to do what they want with their bodies and having everything taken away. But the kids run away and hide underground, and in the story, the runaway unwinds were hid in underground tunnels, and it reminds me of slavery because slaves had to hid and run to freedom as well.

Roland who is a manipulative and power hunger young man searching to take control and have popularity in any way possible and everywhere he goes. He is threaten by Conner and hates the Admiral. The reason is he knows they have power and he wants it but the power is not easy for him to get. Roland has brainwashed all the unwinds in the graveyard to believe that the Admiral have killed Emby and is using the unwinds for his own good.  He is wrong, but none of them now that, and believes what Roland says because he is in charge. When the unwinds go into the desert and find the body of 5 dead unwinds who are the Goldens they all believe the Admiral killed them because of all the brainwashing Roland have done so the unwind started a riot. Even though Roland was not there to find the dead bodies or was there for the riot, he mentally started the riot because of all the negative words Roland have been saying about the Admiral.

Conner have grown a lot from the first part of the story, he is realizing his ability. Also, he stays to himself but he does have power, he is known to everyone and starts to control is temper. Also, he learns more about the Admiral, and he finally grows a heart because he learns to take care of people who he cares about and kinda understand why some people should be unwind. In addition, Conner have learn to be patient and remember Risa voice in his head, he has found something to live from and to keep him calm. He has grown into a man over the last few sections of the story.

Bruh, you are beautiful.

"My parents always tells me that I am fat, It brought me down so much that it lowered my self esteem. I would cry myself to sleep knowing that I will never be beautiful compared to other girls. It affected me so much that I would starve for the rest of the day and only have something to drink."

I feel for Christy, what she is talking about in her blog post about asking What is the definition of Beautiful? cause a lot of girls deal with the same problem. Our parents always discourage our appearance and how us girls are not good looking enough and compare us to other girls. They will always say ‘look at her she is skinny, why arent you like that?’ or they will call you want or say anything to just put girls down for their appearance. Parents will never be happy with anything and when you tell them that it hurts our feelings, they do not really care. They think that what they are saying are advice but it is not, what they are saying is rude and ignorant. I can not stand when my parents or any parent say that to their child, it disgust me.

For girls or boys that are deal with this problem, ignore your parents. You are beautiful just the way you are. Don’t ever listen to someone who is putting you down cause they are not better. Maybe they are just jealous cause of how beautiful you look. Beauty can be found anywhere, it does not have to be in appears, it can be anything. If someone does not agree with that then I guess they must be really arrogant. Also, stand up when your parents are putting you down, do not let them run all over you. Tell them the truth, say you are beautiful cause everyone is. If they do not believe that then they can suck it (sorry for my use of word).

Beauty comes from inside that is what people will love you most for. You can not be just pretty on the outside and really bitchy and stupid on the inside. No one will love you. Most the time or all the time, beauty counts on the inside. Who you are is your beauty.

Unwind. Part UNO. :D

In the book Unwind by Neal Shusterman, talks about a generation that is a whole different society, when the United States have a second Civil War, the war was over reproductive rights. Now in this society, parents are able unwound their child at the age thirteen to eighteen if they do not wish to take care of there child anymore. Unwound or unwind means that kids are force to go to a harvest camp and give up their body parts to injured or sick people. The kids had no way out, they were forced to go.

Conner who is a rebel was forced to be unwind when his parents signed the paper. Risa who is an orphan and was kicked out her music program. Lev who is a tithed, so he was born knowing he is going to be unwind all his life. These three kids runaway to prevent getting unwound. Conner and Risa were on the same page at day one when had different way to do thing, Lev was lead as a hostage by later on realizes Conner saved his life.

In this story, there is no understanding  why parents are able to give up their children the way they do. How are they able to live with them? It is outrageous what they have done to their child. Risa, was never given a chance, orphan are forced to get unwind at the age of thirteen if they do not get adapted. The law have changed a lot. Women are able to give up their baby if they do not what to. The way they do that is by leaving the baby at someone porch and when the family opens the house and see the baby, it baby is now belong to them, this was called storking.

Conner is the main character, he acts like he is a tough and badass attitude and that he can take on anything but he really can not. Conner is kinda weak because he does not think with his brain he thinks on instant. Also, Conner has a heart but does not show it, he likes to make everyone think he is tough and that nothing can stop him but Risa knows better. Plus, Conner is a type of person that wants to save everyone or it bothers him when he can not.

Risa and Conner are currently in a warehouse trying to go into safety and surviving til eighteen when they are free to live their life. The society in this story is cruel and wrong. This is no way to rule a country.

I think the society of the rulers in this country needs a SMH. I would never want to live in that society.

ESSAY BRUH. its DONE. I am DONE with the GARCIAS. They are DONE!

People might come from the same culture, where men are powerful and women are forced to give up their lives but they can have different endings. In the  book How the Garcia Girls Lost Their Accent by Julia Alvarez and House on Mango Street by Sandra Cisnero. These two books are based on the same topic but have different endings. Both the books show a story about women who are empowered, dealing with their culture and the men in their lives, they have to face these problems in their daily lives and have to find a way to overcome them. These stories have similar begins but the ending is very different from each other.

In the books they are based on the culture that are in the characters lives. The culture in both books are similar to each other because it is from a place where men are in control and women listen to demands. These character both come from a place of poverty and having to fit into the “American life style”. But these stories does not have the same ending that people expect because both books went opposite direction in the end. In the book How the Garcia Girls Lost Their Accent, the women in the story left their culture behind. Throughout the book the author discusses that the women are branching out of their homes and finding men outside of their culture. The girls start to rebel on their culture and become more into the American life with going out and dating guys. The girls start to become independent and have the power to control their lives and do whatever they want that is best for them. When they felt their culture, they had to learn a lot about the outside world but it was better for them because now they are able to do whatever they want with no one holding them down. Unlike the women in House on Mango Street, where the culture is similar the Garcia Girls but the girls where forced to listen to every single word the men say. In this story the culture was more powerful and it had full control of the girls lives. They were never able to revolt and leave, they were trapped in this town where they will soon have to marry at a young age and that is the end of their life because their freedom is gone. These books have culture similarity but the women in Garcia Girls were more in control of their lives and was able to revolt and start a whole new life, not like House on Mango Street who were trapped into a culture that will never let them leave.

In addition in both of the books, the women have trouble with men but one book is able to solve their problems unlike the other. In How the Garcia Girls Lost Their Accent, the girls are able to leave the dominant men when they left their culture. Those men were their past now because they are able to find other men who are able to treat them better and give them a choice, “ ‘I’ll always love you!’ he said, splurging. ‘Marry me, marry me.’”(70). This shows that the girls are able to branch out to a new culture and love a men who is not dominant and control. The men was able to give them some freedom and the girls were happy with that, even though they have some problems with men they always had a way to solve it. On the other hand on House on Mango Street, the girls are forced to stay at home and learn how to do housework and marry men form their culture. For example, “Sally got married like we knew she would, young and not ready but married just the same”(101). This explains that the girls are forced to stay in their culture and marry at a young age, they are giving up everything. That is what most girls do in their culture and it does not change. These two books show what to do and what not to do. They are explains of how people are able to leave or stay in a culture where men are the dominant group and they gets to call all the shots.

Also, in these two books it shows that women are low on power but it is based on them and their story. The stories is in favor of the men also, it describes a lot about culture and where they came from. The structure of the story is very similar to each other and have a passage of leading to our society now and how everyone is rebelling. Or some people are staying into their culture but they are suffering. The books tell two different stories about how life can end and how people are able to choice what kind of life they want instead of being trapped into a box by men. The books are a great way to learn about lives that a chosen for the girls and how they have to work with what they have in life. Furthermore, it shows that women need to step p and take power so they are able to get their life into order and call it there own.

In conclusion, both stories gives an example of what is happening in out society. The story is mostly based on women and how they suffering in their daily life. The books talk about many topics about culture, men, and enforcement of power. In society women need to take charge so men will not walk over them and think they are the in full control. Us, women have to stand up and become independent and learn from House on Mango Street and How the Garcia Girls Lost Their Accent.

How the Garcia Girls Lost Their Accent Part THREE BRUH.

The story of How the Garcia Girls Lost Their Accent was an interesting book... I did not like it as much as I was planning to. The book did not had a flow or a hook that I wanted to catch my eye. Instead the story had a flow that was boring, there was no WOW factor in the book, it just moved topic to topic. I still have no idea why the author chose the way she organized her story, it was just plain confusing. Even though I did not enjoy the book, I did kinda understand so point of the story and it catch my eyes at times.

The ending of the story was like a ‘what?...’ moment for me. The book ended with a cat past away. At first that is what I thought, it was just another dying cat but when we had the class discussion, I realized that the cat had a bigger meaning. The cat represent the four sisters and all the pain and sadness they are feeling. The cat is their feelings and what they are hiding form their family and everything they want to say but they can not. When the cats come back it means they have to face all those feelings again and have to find a way to get rid of it. Also, it is the emotions the four girls about their parents and they sadness. The act is their pain.

Furthermore, the ending of the book talks about why the family have decided to move to the states. Also how the girls grew up to shape them and who they are meant to be. The girls did not get much attention from the parents so they feel abandon. When the Yoyo sold herself for clay it shows that she was not that smart even though it says she was smart, there are certain kind of smartness and she is only smart by using her words. The girls had a rough life but they found a way to get rid of the pain and were able to have each other backs, they were always there for each other.

Vlog problems. Tumblr is love.

Mr. Sutherland I failed...The video blog did not work out so well some of my work got deleted and I still have a lot of work to do and do not want to rushing my work. Plus, I need a lot of help but I want to show you what I have on Monday. I need advice.

Now, I am going to talk about Tumblr. My new found love.

Dear Tumblr,

I love you. You make my whole life so much easier. You put my feelings into words. You are always there for me when I have no one and makes me feel that I am not alone and hundreds of people are feeling the same way as me. I fill complete because I have you in my life Tumblr. You are something that I can actually called mine. You let me customize you any way I want and let me re-blog as many post as I want.

Without you Tumblr I do not know what I would do. I know I have a blog here but it is not the same. You understand me. It is crazy because you are just a website, but it is love. You make me laugh, smile, cry, and etc, my day get so much better when I get online and just read all the blog post and it makes me fill happy inside that I am not alone.

When I first started of at Tumblr I did not know much except it is a website where you re-blog pictures but it was so much more. It was a community of people that share their lives and talking about our feelings. I know that shows really stupid but it helps out a lot. In addition, Tumblr keeps me up to date about everything and what is new in the world.

So, Tumblr I love you in my life. Don’t ever leave me or I would be very sad. Also do not turn into Facebook, that would be horrible and then I would have to stop seeing you and move on to something you. Tumblr, our relationship is solid lets keep it that way and stop being so gosh dang popular, I hate waiting to use Tumblr. It makes me mad and sad.

End of story, Tumblr you are my love.

Response to Karen

I was reading through some blogs and Karen’s blog really caught my eye. She said that is true and should be spoken about.

Why is it that it's okay for males to do these things and talk about it like in raps,etc. but for women it is frowned upon? Some people said because women end up with consequences like for example ending up pregnant. But my brother called her slut for playing them, not taking in any sexual activity. Some other people said because it's more common for a girl to be the ones who are cheated on and get their heart broken and since it's kind of uncommon for guys to get their hearts broken, they get pity. I still don't know why this happens.

I have the same question as Karen. Why are girls held in a higher standard than boys? Girls are judge by everything and except to be a polite and quiet person. I do not understand why. When a girl is wild and does not follow the rules, she is immediately called a whore or something defensive. But when boys are doing something wrong, they are usually getting away with it or given props from their friends.

In addition, when a girl date a lot or just really friendly, they are known as a slut and getting back stabbed by her friends. While boys date as many girls they want and they are called a player which is what they enjoy to be called. So, I never really understand why that is the problem. It is kinda wrong that girls are being called all these names and people do not understand it hurts them. Also, everything they do they are judge upon in a bad way while boys are judge differently and they like to be called that.

Finally, I do not understand that boys are allowed to disrespect girls without no one saying anything. Girls are shown as bitches and sluts so boys call them that as a way to name them. This is what my thought about this situation.

Sorry.. This not my best blog.. I am trying to editing my vlog.. I am kinda stuck.

How the Garcia Girls Lost Their Accent Part 2.

After reading part two of the book How the Garcia Girls Lost Their Accent by Julia Alvarez, I realized that there is a pattern for each of the parts. Part one is about how they have lost their innocence completely. While part two is about how they begin their journey in the United States and slowly bring to lose their innocence. I am predicting that part three will be about how they are in the Dominic Republic and they have innocence. Now part two talks about each girl is every vignette and how boys and the new culture is changing. Also how they are adapting to the United States.

The culture in the story has a big impact. All the girls innocence came from their culture but then when they move to the United States they have to learn about a whole new culture. They have to adapted to what is coming for them in this world. All the girls start to rebel at one point of the story. For example, they started to experiment with weed, and be more attracted with boys and going out. After a year in the country, the family had gotten use to their new homes and when the girls start to go to school it is when all the madness begins because that is where they learn most. Also, they would learn when they walked home or how they are socializing. When they start to adapt to the United States they have forgotten what their culture back in the Dominic Republic so, they lose their innocence because they lose their culture and approval fro their father.

In addition, during class today my group have though that the title has a very big connection with the story because when the author says accent it is inferring to the girls innocence. The reason I believe this is true is because when you lose your accent it is like losing your culture and now people are unable to tell where you came from. When you lose an accent you have to gain a new way of talking as in this book it is a new way of living. They have to change their lives like people have to change languages when you move into a new country.

Basketball is my favorite sport

Monday will be the day I will be trying out for basketball. I am so nervous. I have not played basketball for a couple months now but I have hope that I still got the skills and remember how to play the game. I know practicing is very crucial but I just have no time and hopefully I am able to just wing it and everything will be fine.

Basketball is one if the sports I am most confident with playing. I spent most my child hood playing basketball with my brother or at a youth center I used to go to. I used to play basketball almost everyday but then I got lazy and really busy with school. Basketball was now not part of my life but I want it to be. This is why I want to play this year and to get in fit. It is a great way to work out. I never know why I enjoy playing basketball cause I hate running and balls but basketball has always been the sport that I never hated.

I hate my height. Everyone is always taller than me when I play basketball. People always think I suck cause I am short. I hope that is not true. I really want to grow like 5 inches through so, I can be beasting on all the players but I cant. I am only 4’11, very short and can not beast on anyone yet. Sadly, I will never get taller so I will have to work around my height and figure out a way to beast on everyone in a different way.

I need to find a way to chill out cause I am really nervous and it is not even Monday. My mind is like freaking out. What do I bring? What time? What am I going to do? AHHH. So many questions. My mind wants to explode. I hate tryouts... It is like you only get one chance to do the best you can and if you dont then you are screwed and you can not play. So much pressure.. I hate that. I seriously need to find a way to calm myself cause this is not healthy. This weekend will be long.

This is not a very interesting blog. Sorry Mr. Sutherland. I am still trying to figure out the article you sent me. Then I will start on my blog on Prop 19.

Where is the freakin justice?

At the moment my mind is spinning. I do not understand the ‘justice system’. Where is the justice? I was reading Ruby’s blog and I started to get angry with every sentence I read.

“Today is November 5, 2010 and the judge has decided to sentence him two years jail time with credit of 292 days, meaning he will serve under two years for killing Oscar Grant. Oakland is pissed.”

Mehrelse gets 2 freakin years. That is not fair at all. It just shows how cops are able get away with anything. What kind of world are we living in? Mehrelse cold blooded murdered Ocsar Grant. He should be getting life or at least 10 years in jail but no, he gets 2 years. It is not even 2 years, it is more like 1 year. One year for a young men life. Justice is not achieve today. For me, as a young person it shows that justice might never be serve in this system. We will never win. Our people will never get the justice we deserve and I hate it.

I do not blame Oakland for being pissed. They deserve to be angry. I am pissed. It is not fair a men is getting away with murder when there is a video showing he killed Oscar Grant. The people of Oakland does not understand how justice is serve, they are mad. They want to get their voice heard and rally what they believe is right. The injustice that has happen today, they need a way to express themselves and their angry. I hope there will be no riots or violence break out tonight.

At the moment, I am watching the news. The people of Oakland are marching the streets. Some people are being peaceful but others are destroying windows, cars, and vandalizing. To those people who are destroying our city, please don’t. They are not to blame for the death of Oscar Grant. They did not do anything, if you want to take your angry out or get your voice then give him a peaceful rally, honor him. Remind peacefully. Do not mess up someone’s business. Just give your respects.

How the Garcia Girl Lost Their Accents: Part UNO.

How the Garcia Girls Lost Their Accents is not the most interesting book at first. As, I started to read the book, it was confusing. I did not know who was talking or what they are talking about. The Spanish was hard to read at time but as I kept on reading it got easier to understand. The beginning was really hard because I had to read the book with no knowledge of any real detail of the story. When, I start to get to the 3rd or 4th chapter the story was getting easier, I still did not know who was talking at times but I understand more as I kept reading.

The first part of the story is basically explaining how the family are living their lives. The 4 girls get to tell their story. Also, their connection with their parents, mostly the father. The family have a lot of drama, and everything happen fairly quick. The parents are more old school and the 4 sisters are more into the new generation where boys and going out is what they think about. The dad does not like that so much and is disappointed  because he believes the girls should stay home but that does not happen.

The setting effects the story a lot because of how different the life style is. In the Dominican Republic they are close to home and their culture and they would not lose their knowledge of where they came from. In the U.S. they have to adapt to a new culture and try to figure our a way to fit in to the world. They do not learn about their religion or anything about their culture. So, they start to lose their heritage and everything they learn back at home in Dominican Republic.

In conclusion, the story is based on lost of culture, like a lost on who the 4 sisters are. The sisters have gotten the “US culture” to get the best of them. I want to see if they are able to gain their heritage back. Also, make their parents proud of them and show that they can still be their little sisters, and not the girls they are disappointed on their action, so they need to prove it.

Reflective Essay - My Blog & I

During the past few weeks, I realized that my writing structure have changed a lot from last year. My work is not the same as last year, I think am able to show what I am best at now because of the freedom my blog have given me as a writer and I want to take full advantage. So, I have realized my difference with formal and blog writing and how I get my ideas for my blog.
I do not write as formal as I used to, my writing at the moment is free and it expresses my feelings more. In formal writing, I am held to a structure that I have to follow and words that I have to use because that is what the reader want. Now, that we have been writing blogs I started to have my own kind of writing.

My writing now, I am able to call my own because I am free to write whatever I want and say whatever I want. As, a writer I feel that I have succeed because I realized that I know how my writing is and how it is different from formal writing. Writing in partial is really hard for me but on my blogs I find that when I express my thought about social concerned I have more to write about and my mind is more clear. Also, I am able to challenge myself as a writing because I always write about a need topic every week.

On the other hand, in formal writing I have to be trapped into a box where I have to connect my thoughts to a book or the prompt. That is not very easy to write because I have to be open minded but realized that I still have to stay on topic and have to connect my writing in one simple theme. For some people that might be easy but for me I have a difficult time and I will not have much to talk about. In my formal essay, I talk about the same theme or have the same prompt every time I am writing because that is the only idea I have. I have to trap myself and thoughts in a box because I have to connect with everything and keep it formal, I do not have to do that in my blog.

My formal and blog styles are very different. In the beginning I was kind of skeptical of the blogs because I wonder what am I suppose to talk about every week. I questioned if I have to stay in the writing structured I learned my love life or am I free to say or do whatever I want on my blog. I realized as I keep on writing my blogs every week that it is my blog. I am capable of doing whatever I want on it and still do a good job. The blog is free me to express my feelings about anything I want in a couple of paragraphs. I do not not have to trap myself in a box anymore because now, I have the ability to have a free space to write and have it be my grade. It is a stress relief. The best part I have learn is that I have my own style of writing that, I like to use.

In addition, to finding my style of writing, I have to find what am I going to write about every week. I get most of my ideas from the media. I want my work to have a meaning and show that I am paying attention to what is happening in our world and what can the youth do to help. One of my blogs I wrote about the 6 boys that died from suicide and that was a very emotional topic but I thought it was needed to be said. I found that story on Tumblr and it got to me and I wanted to say how I feel and just get the word out there so, I decided to write my weekly blog about it. That is how I found most of my idea.

Sometimes, I might find my ideas from my classmate. For example, a group of the sophomores where talking about English class last year and on Friday, I was thinking about what topic to write about and Ms.Valdez popped in my head. Then and there I decided it was the best time to give mt thanks to Ms.Valdez and show that she is missed at ASTI. Even though her class was a pain it was a good pain I guess. That is another way I find myself writing about a blog because it was the best way to show what I was thinking at the moment. And I was hoping that people would agree with me about the topic on Ms.Valdez. These are some ways I find my topics for my ideas.

My goal for the new quarter is being able to connect my blogs to bigger themes. I do not want it to be something small because no one would can I want it to be more inspirational. So, maybe getting deeper into my work would be a good idea I should think about writing. Also, I want to have a new ways of writing because it would be nice to change it up a little bit and have something that will stand out to the people.

I like where I am at right now with my work and how I am improving in every new blog I post and how I am able to get my feelings out more effectively. I have found my ability to write and how it is different from formal writing. Also, I have realized that most my ideas for my blogs just popped in my head or it had come form the media and I am using my voice to tell my peers what is going on in our society and what they can do to help. My goal is next quarter is just to improve my blogs every week and have a new topic that everyone is interested in so, people can be educated. I hope I will reach what I am trying to accomplish.

Night: God, Y U NO HERE FOR ME? ( Eli's conflict with religion and God)

Religion most the time is something you inherit from your family. You do not know why you pray or study your religion , you just do. In the memoir, Night by Elie Wiesel, the author is faced with questioning is religion. He is does not know why or what the cause is what what he is studying for and what is the power of God. Throughout everything he has faced, he tries to question his religion and God in general, so, he can truthfully study his religion or just lose faith in everything.
In the beginning of the memoir Eli is faced with a difficult question about his religion. He had no response to the question when the men asked him, “‘Why do you pray?’ he asked me, after a moment, why did I pray. A strange question. Why did I live? Why did I breathe?”(3).  This shows that Eli does not understand the reasoning for religion. He tries to figure out why he prays and study God but he does not know, Eli praise because he was born into it. In addition, when when people grow up into a religious home then inherit the religion that is what happening with Eli. Furthermore, Eli was raised in a Jewish home, growing up knowing that pray and studying God was the right thing to do and was never explain why. Religion is never question in the family, it is just something you go like breathing or living, Eli was not raised not to do it. He had to, there was no other choice but now that he was asked that question. He starts to question the thing he do for God and why does he do it? What is it for? He starts to question and rebel in his head but he knows he has to believe and pray for God, but he will never know the answer to why he does it.
In addition, Eli starts to lose faith in the power of God and questions his justice again. For example, when Eli and his family are put in a concentration camp, he tries to ask God for help but there was no use. God did not do anything to help him and at the point he did not understand why God is not responding. His journey inside the concentration camp he starts to lose all will in practicing his religion, he starts to revolt, “For the first time I felt revolt rise up in my. Why should I bless His name? The Eternal, Lord of the Universe, the All-Powerful and Terrible, was silent. What had I to thank Him for?”(31) This explains that Eli does not agree on what God is doing, he does not understand God. Also, God has done nothing for him therefore God is nothing for him to waist him time on. Eli keeps on thinking what he should do about his religion and if the power of God is even useful. He does not know what to do but question God and his use of his power if he has powerful at all.
After a couple years in the concentration camp, Eli starts to work and once in awhile pray to God but when he does turn back to God, he questions him again. For instance, “Where is He? Here He is- He is hanging her on the gallows” (62) This demonstrates that Eli still has faith in the power of God but only when he needs him. Also, when God does not follow through with what is asked of him, Eli give up. He tries to question why or where God is but why is he letting his people suffer, and is God suffering with them. Eli only questions God because there is no one else to blame for his misery, the problems he cannot solve, God is always the person to blame because Eli gave him faith to him but nothing comes out of it. Eli is still faced with his problems and still wondering where God is.
In conclusion, Eli had a conflict with God and  his religion because he is trying to firgure out the purpose. He wants to know why everything is happening but there is no help at all. So, he starts to question God throughout the memoir and wants to know the  reasoning but can never find out. He is faced with the struggled that he was born into religion with forced and can never leave it, religion will live with him no matter what even if he tries to revolt because he find a way to run back to God to blame him for his problems. In the end, Eli struggles to find his relationship with his religion but realizes that there will always be something there for him.

Teen Pregnancies Response.

Teenage pregnancies has been a massive social concern in our society and people are turning it into a reality show. That is ridiculous. I was reading through Gina’s blog and I agree with her quote,

“I have no idea why this show is aired on national television. What is its purpose? Does anyone know? I sure don't. This show is just a way to make money off of these poor girls who have made bad life choices. MTV  is not helping these girls nor are they helping the thousands of girls who are in the same predicament, they are simply using them as cash cows so that we can be entertained as we sit in front of our television sets. If MTV really wanted to help these girls, they would give them the resources to be able to continue on with their lives and be the best mothers that they can be.”

In my opinion, Teen moms should not be given a show, it just shows that teenagers are able to get away with anything and are given a privilege to be on T.V. That does not teach anyone anything. It  causes a bigger problem because it give teenagers a reason to get pregnant so, they can make easy money by getting on T.V. Teen moms should just keep their business to themselves and take care of what they need like taking care of their kids instead, of caring about getting on T.V. In a way, they are using their kid and that is not fair on their kid behave.

I agree that MTV should stop trying to make money off the teenage moms, instead they should be giving them money and helping them with their life. Also, what is it going to help if we are watching these girls struggle in a daily bases wouldn’t it be more effective if MTV go out and talk about teenage pregnancies. Use their voice and inform teenagers about the problem and show them how they are able to get help. MTV has the power to do a lot with their voice so, they should stop making Teen moms famous and inform more.

Finally, to everyone that is reading this, if your going to have sex, use a condom and be safe. So, my last sentence are, wrap it before you tap it. I do not want to see any of you on Teen Mom.

Bullying. Discrimination. Suicide.

Over the past 3 weeks or so, 6 gay teens have committed suicide because they were being bullied because of their sexual orientation. That has to stop now. No one should be teased or discriminated to a point where they are willing to hurt themselves. Those boys had hope and dreams, they had a future a head of them and people who loved them and so many opportunity. But due to the harsh circumstances they had to face in their daily life, they have taken their own lives to stop all the pain. Those boys and all homosexual are staying true to themselves, staying loyal to the concept of love, and using their constitutional right to be who they are. They are not in any way different, they can not help who they love, we love who we love, at least they are able to love someone and should not put down for that.

Bullying and Discrimination. Why do we do it? Does it make us feel better? It is a fight for power? I don’t understand. How can people just hurt others because they believe or have feelings that are different from us? Everyone is unique in their own way. We should not judge people cause they love people from the same sex. There is nothing wrong with that. They have every right to love that person. It is their chose in life and we have no right to say anything about it. Bullying and all the hate needs to stop because it leads to suicide like those 6 teens boys and many more. They have to suffer everyday because of other’s stupidity and everyone as a nation did nothing to stop them. Where were the teachers? The adults in there life? How can we be a ‘United States’ if we are not even united. United people do not use harsh comments and hate for each other because we have different beliefs and feelings. We need to accept it and understand from their point of view and give support. Not judge someone. Bullying needs to stop. Discrimination just go away. Just stop all the hate. What are we even hating for?

Something has to change right now. Stop using words like ‘gay’ fag’ ‘dyke’ or anything that has to do with people sexual orientation or anything in general. It might be funny to you but those words hurt and it can cause someone to take their own life. If you know someone is dealing with bullying help them. Don’t stand and do nothing. Help them. Everyone has to stand together and fight this battle we call bullying. So, we won’t have teens committing suicide because they hate who they are and tired of living a life of hell.

To those family that lost a child because of bullying. My hearts goes out to you. I am sorry for your lost. I am sorry we were not able to save them. I am sorry your family have to deal with others ignorance. I am sorry...

Stupid Questions

As, I was though posts, I started to read Amber’s blog got me really thinking about asking questions and agree with what she has said,

“If you don’t understand something, then ask someone else about it and you can learn by asking the question, even if it sounds ridiculous.  Asking questions to try to understand things you don’t understand is the equivalent of opening new doors to new explorations and opportunities.”

I agree with what Amber has said because everyone has to be able to ask a question even if it is the stupidest thing ever. If you can not understand then speak up and say something about it. Dont be scared to hold it in and not know what is going on. Exploit your voice that is what it is made for and ask as many questions you want. Everyone might get annoyed but it does not matter just ask it because someone in the room might be having the same question but are not saying anything because they might feel stupid for asking and you are doing them a favor. So, to the people that ask stupid questions thank you.

In my opinion, there is no such thing as a stupid questions. Everyone has a questions that needs to be answered. Also, people do not understand things that quickly and need a reminder so it just need to be repeat so they should ask. Never be embarrassed of asking anything because there is always an answer and like I saw before someone out there will  have the same question. In addition, teachers, adults, and etc always say asking questions is the best way to learn so you should just ask away cause you are learning something. Either it is to knowing, doing, exploring, ot anything you are able to learn. Without stupid questions some people might be confused plus if the question is stupid then people will have a good laugh out if it. So, everything is able to benefit from a stupid questions.

To all the people that ask stupid questions or ask too much questions, I would like to say thank you. You are able to be brave enough to ask something that people are unable to ask. You are asking for the shy people even if you don’t know it. Thank you. I appreciate it.